Me and not Me

I have been using 'anarosemarie' for as long as I can remember. I invent and re-invent the blog, the style, but I do not sustain it. I have thought of stopping again and re-inventing myself one last time, but do not know how or where I am going. I want to change my online name, erase the past and start afresh. In reality I do not know who I am and have been looking in all the wrong places for validation. I want to accomplish something without giving up on dreams because I doubt myself or take a criticism to heart. I want to be free of Me, the one and only person who stands in my way. I have blamed everything and everyone for the choices that I have made, for a long time, but I have blamed myself most of all. I have never given myself a break, allowed myself to fail without berating myself for the failure and I never ever allow myself to forget. The guilt that shapes my life is piled on by me. I hope that 2014 is the year that I endeavour to forgive myself and be who I truly am, not the person I believe others want me to be.

Latest creations

Baking therapy.

And they didn't even notice the difference!!

I want to experiment with gluten free flours to create the cakes and biscuits that my family love. Although I am not a coeliac, I do have an intolerance and as such I want to try to eat less wheat and gluten. I hope to take a bread and pastry course to enhance my skills as I have been mixing my own flours for a while and would like to perfect bread baking. So here are a couple of pictures of today's efforts. 

 

Late night baking

Pizza and brownies baked whilst waiting for my boy to come home. 

Beautiful sunsets, beaches and quirky houses.

My stay in Devon with my good friend has been restful and idyllic. The sunsets and the quirky houses have all been feasts for the eye. This time away has been a much needed rest for my soul as it gave me much needed peace and tranquility away from the hustle and bustle and noise of the Big Smoke. Back now and inspired to get on with projects. Watch this space. 

Peeking out

Here is another sneaky peek. WIP is coming along nicely. It has been a very busy couple of  days. Busses, trains and not quite planes but the amount of travelling I have done over the last couple of days has been exhausting. I am off again tomorrow morning for a very long train ride so hopefully there will be a lot more to see. Have to get up in 4 hours eek!!! So it's goodnight from WIP and its goodnight from me. 

WIP

Can you guess?